* One Step At a Time *

So lately it has been such a bad time with dealing with bad headaches!! And I just felt like why is this happening and what am I suppose to learn from this other then to have patience..... Which I do, but its hard to see things with a prospective of looking at what you have rather then when you really want things to be the way they use to be! But anyways, yesterday. I was just thinking about this. And my sister pointed something out to me. That maybe this happened so that I would still be at home when my little sister decided she was ready to move out and be married. Which came as a shock to my whole family sense she was only 17. My older sister pointed out maybe I was suppose to be at home to help my mom and dad get through a really difficult time. Especially since she was their " baby girl" And just all of the things that happened. And so in a way. I think maybe that might be why I am still dealing with so many things. To still be helping them get through all of the things that they have had to go through along with all of the things that happened with me..... I am kind of a trouble maker I guess. lol.

So in so many ways, I am grateful to be living at home still. But sometimes I wish that I would be married or going to college like normal people my age do. And dating and all of the fun things that I should be experiencing. Rather then being at home. But I guess I just need to slow down a bit. Who knows, maybe this was all of the reasons. To help my parents by giving them support while so many crazy things were going on. And to also find who I am and what my calling on earth is. Which I still do not know.. Haha. Maybe I am the peacemaker in my family.lol. Who knows. But its just strange the way the lord gets your attention because you are being silly. And not paying attention to what he is really wanting. I probably sound really silly. But hopefully you guys understand a little. :) I guess I should probably give some new news though. I am an aunt of a beautiful baby boy again!! He was born on Jan 28 and he is such an adorable baby. When he was born though he was not very pretty. lol. His face was black and blue and his eyes were swollen along with his little face and ears. He look like he had been in a fight lol. But now all of his swelling is all gone. And he is absolutely beautiful!! I am looking forward to the day when I have one of my own!! And my other sister Ashly's due date is coming up very soon. I think she is due like feb 27. My mom thought it would be neat if my sister had him on her birthday which is on the 25 since my dad has a granddaughter who was born on his 40th birthday. So I guess we will just have to see what happens.:) I will post pictures soon of the babies!! But I thought I should update this thing!!
Anyways, things are going good. Very busy but going good. I hope everyone else is doing amazing also!!

Sunday, January 11, 2009

My First blog!!!

So today I decided that I should get a blog to keep everyone updated on how things are going. I get asked all the time so today I decided that I should get a blog:) It seems like everyone usually gets one of these when they are getting married or are married. I am neither. Haha. I am single. And not engaged or married. Haha. Its kind of weird talking about your self on one of these but we will just see how this works out.
A little about what happened in the past two years, I was in a bad accident in 2007. And I ended up needing to have a brain surgery to ease the fluid in my brain. I found out that I was born with enlarged ventricles. But my body just compensated for it growing up. But me shattering the passenger window with my head had my ventricles even more larger than what they normally were. So I ended up needing the surgery to ease all of that. I ended up getting staff meningitis from the first surgery. Which was in Utah at the University of Utah hospital. I didn't know I had gotten it though until I came back to meridian and was not getting better at all and was suppose to be doing better but I was not doing any better. I started running a high fever and was vomiting a month and a half later. A day before Easter. I was really really sick. And my skin was yellow from the staff attacking my liver. So the morning after Easter, I was just getting progressively worse. So my parents rushed me to St. Luke's in Meridian at like 4:00 in the morning. And the doctor examined me and took my temperature, And then told me that I had all the signs of staff. And that they were sending an ambulance from their to get me right away and take me to the St. Luke's in Boise because it is a bigger hospital, and they had better care for me. When I got their the neurologist who was their examined me and said that he was sending me to the O.R. to prep me for surgery. Well let me tell you, this was not a happy experience for me. I started to bawl. I thought " well" If I was not taken in the car accident and the first surgery, then during this surgery was my time to go. I thought to myself" why is this happening" Why did heavenly father wait to take me now and let me suffer more pain then just taking me in the accident? It would have been so much easier just to be taken in the accident. Which I am grateful that it wasn't.:) So I had the second surgery to remove the tube that the University of Utah hospital had put inside my head to be able to ease fluid again if I ever needed it. Through just doing spinal tapps. Those hurt so bad!! I hate them so much. So he went in and removed the tube and cleaned inside my head the best he could. And then kept me in the hospital for five nights to monitor me and make sure I was ok to go home. And kept me on some strong antibiotics. To kill the staff infection.

When the accident happened which was on Feb 5th 2007 I was with my ex fiancee. And we were going to go and get some things from walmart to make smoothies. So I told my mom where we were going and told her we were either going to walmart or alberstons and that I was not sure which Chris was planning on going to. So I was running out the door when she called me and said" where are you going? And I told her again mom, I dont know? I told you walmart or Albersons and she said "no" Which one? So me being upset at it taking so long to leave I said mom what does it matter? And she said just tell me which one? So I decided then, I yelled out as I was walking out the door, " Walmart" And she said ok. I love you please put your seat belt on. So I said " mom you know I always wear my seat belt and she said I know, but make sure you do. I love you and be careful. So I finally got into the car with Chris. And he asked me Walmart or Albersons? And I said Walmart. So we drove down our road and turned onto Robinson and Flamingo rd. But before we turned and we were still at the stop sign, I heard someone say" Kody, what are you doing? Put your seat belt on" I looked down and in amazement I did not have it on which was weird because I always wear it. So I thought " Did Chris just say that? It sounded just like my grandpa who passed away ten years before so I was thinking did I seriously hear him or was it Chris? Well I asked Chris, did you say something? And he said no I didn't" And I said you didn't just tell me to put my seat belt on? And he said no. So I said ok. And went on talking after I put on my seatbelt. And as we came down the hill. We began to slide when we got down towards the bottom of the hill. We did not know that the state had sprayed deicer on the road. And they sprayed twice the amount that was needed. Which was really weird that it was even sprayed that day. It was actually really warm. The sun was out and their was no wet roads. And no snow or ice. But the state did spray the deicer. So when we began to slide. The car wrapped completely around a power pull on my side. Completely folded around the power pull and then hopped a foot back. From how hard the impact was. I remember a guy who heard the accident. Come up to Chris's window and ask if we were ok. Chris looked at me and said " Are you alright? And I said yeah, I just need a minute. Give me a minute. And then I looked over to my right where the power pull was and took one short little breath, because it hurt to breathe. And then I held it. I then fell unconscious and stopped breathing completely. When my mom and dad got to the scene they beat the ambulance their. Since it was right down the hill from where we live. My mom squeezed in between the power pull and the car and was trying to see if I was alive since no one was with me and I was all by myself. My mom started feeling my neck and my hand looking for a pulse. I didn't have one. She then started yelling at me " Kody, open your eyes, Breathe Kody. Mom and Dad are both here. Open your eyes. I finally pushed out the breathe that was in my chest. And a few minutes later I asked what happened? They told me. And then I started to close my eyes again saying I need to just sleep for a minute. Just a minute mom please I am really tired. And she yelled at me again to keep my eyes open and to breathe. This went on for a few minutes of me trying to close my eyes. But every time I would she would say " Kody open your eyes, keep your eyes open and breathe. " The ambulance is on its way. And then I told her I just want to go home and sleep" And she said we are going to take you to the hospital and get you checked then you can sleep.
My mom and dad both were helping hold my neck and keep me from moving till they got the paramedics their. When the ambulance and fire department finally got their. They decided that they were going to have to cut the top off of the car to get me out. So I had two paramedics talking to me under a blanket. Asking me all kinds of questions just to keep me awake. I remember telling him to stop talking though and just let me close my eyes. I could barely even talk back though. I felt like I was drugged. It was taking everything I had to keep my eyes open. And to talk to the paramedic. But finally they got me out. :) And took me to St. Als. in Boise. Because they thought I was in alot of trouble and that I probably had head to toe broken bones. So they took me their. I was examined and had to wait a few minutes before they could give me something for the pain. The pain was really bad by the time I got to the hospital. So they finally gave me something for the pain once they had me settled in and had an i.v. started to start getting fluids running through my i.v. And then they did an M.R.I which I don't even remember being awake for. I don't know if they put me out for it. I think they did. To keep me still and thats why I don't remember having it done. And did a cat scan. And the m.r.i. told them how swollen my ventricles were. And that if I was not operated on soon. I could have sudden death if I did not have the operation to ease the fluid soon. So thats when we went to the U of Utah. And had the surgery performed their. Since all this happened which has been almost two years now since the accident. I am still trying to get on my feet. Which the recovery is just really slow. And just alot of appointments now with doctors. Other then that not really anything else to talk about. I thought it would be a good idea just to have a blog. Then I don't have to keep telling people how I am doing. And my whole story of what happened. They can just read my blog. :)

Other then what has been going on the past two years. Some of my favorite things to do are, going to the mall, shopping anywhere, going out to dinner, hanging out with great friends. You really get to know who your " real" friends are after something traumatic happens in your life.
True friends are still their for you helping you get through whatever happens. I have had the opportunity to know that. I have lost alot of people who I thought I was close to but they just moved on. So I guess I am thankful to know who really has cared. I do have a really great friend who I am very, very, close to. She is amazing. And I love her to death. :) Anyways, other then all of this that I have wrote I am just living life to its fullest. And thankful for every breath that I take because I know I am alive. And that is a great feeling to know.:)